Merry Christmas my precious little ones.

I just wanted to say I Love You and Miss You all.

It's that time of year again and a sad time for me. I still don't decorate or celebrate the traditional Christmas only the true meaning of this day. I go to candlelite service and say a prayer for you.

I remember all the good times I had when you were all here and opened up your presents. Especially you Chif as you loved Christmas & had to open your present all by yourself. It was also Christmas when I lost you. But on Christmas eve I heard the bells ring that I ask God for & I knew you got your wings.

I put the tree we always trimmed outside for the birds and will put stuff on for them now and gave all the decorations to the Goodwill for some other family to enjoy. Boy we had a lot.

I sent Jordy up with you last year. I am sure you will like him. Cuddles you will - he is alot like you. Then this year a few weeks ago I sent my Lucky up to be with you. Make him welcome and play with him. He is a real sweetheart and my heart is still breaking over him. I wanted so for him to be healthy and be able to run and play. I guess he can now since he's up there so be good to him and love him as much as I did. I still do. I love you all and always will. I think of you all often and wish I could see you one more time and hold you in my arms. I guess I will have to wait, but one day I will be there and we will be together again forever.

When Lucky left- I hear the bells for him too Chif. It was a joy to know he was up there with you all and that God would watch over him for me. It was an answer to my prayer. Now he is free of all his pain and suffering.

I have some new babies here now but they aren't quite like you guys were. But I love them all in a different way. There will never be another bunch like I had with you. You were angels down here and now you are angels up there. These guys are a different bunch from you but they are learning to trust and to love and are pretty good most of the time. I keep telling them they should be like my family was but I guess that will never be. They had a hard life so far and I raised you all from babies. So you didn't know what abuse was (except for you Spud) but you were very young and learned to trust me really quick.

So Go play with all your friends and wish Jesus a Happy Birthday. Oh and tell him I Love Him. I will think of you all on Christmas eve and wish you were here but soon enough you will look up one day & mommie will be standing there at the gate to hold you all again.

Goodnight my babies. Take care and be good.

I Love You

Mommie

Only a whisper away.

I haven't gone and left you,
I'm here, but you can't see
How close I am beside you,
Yes Mum, it's really me.

Thank you for your kindness,
You've freed me from all pain,
I know you're sad, but don't be,
Soon we'll meet again.

Death is really not the end,
It's just a passing on
Into a world of brightness,
Where fear and pain is gone.

I'm free to run around and play
Just like I used to do.
Until we meet again Mum,
I'll wait here just for you

Dear Lord

On this holy night I honor your birth.

Please watch over my little ones up there. Help them to be patient and keep them in your care. Let them know that one day I will follow them and we will be together again, never again to part.

Be with me in my sorrow here on earth. Help me to be strong for the little ones I have now. Give me the strength to go on to continue to help those who need help. And to help the humans who need to know their babies are safe in your arms.

Help me to know what to do and say to those who grieve and also to keep trying to save the ones here who are so deserving to have love and happiness here on earth.

Guide me in what I should do.

Thank you dear Lord

Chaplain Dottie